The Silly Struggle with Diet and Exercise
Okay. I have a general up and down struggle/problem with proper eating and exercise. Well, not really the exercise part, just the eating part. The problem is that the poor eating leads to not so great workouts so the bad eating does hurt the quality of my workouts. Of course it does. How can it not? I mean... eating a huge hamburger with EVERYTHING and a mountain of cheese on it is going to make me move as fast as the gravy down here in Atlanta... not very fast.
But I just... LOVE food! and I have a really hard time with doing things in moderation. Another part of the problem is that I'm actually pretty 'fit' right now, and really only need to drop about 10 lbs. But it's 10 lbs of all fat, which is a lot and can really make you look much leaner. Amazingly, even though I did start my own restaurant review blog I haven't gained any weight... the muscle has probably shifted over to fat, but the scale is the same... which isn't good... but it's not all out bad.
So really, the goal is to find a better 'middle' between eating the good food at restaurants and not becoming some fat sloth cow from all of it... I'm beyond the usual 'weightloss' stuff. I see those infomercial ads for diet/exercise programs and I see the people... and everyone except for the 'models' they hire for the ads are just... normal looking to me... or not really 'thin' or 'fit' enough for me to say, 'wow, they look great'... I'm sure I'm thinking too high in terms of where I want my body to be... but is there really such a place? ah. I'm sure there is but I'm not to the point where I'm gonna feel bad about wanting to be super-human and totally ripped and any other adjectives I wanna put there. It's just that even though I'm not willing to let go of this obsession, I know it doesn't matter. Tonight is volunteer-with-the-homeless-kids so I always understand that no matter what, I really have it good. To even be in the position where I can struggle with this body image problem... well of course I'm doing alright in life.
Anyways. It's Wednesday and we still have 2 more days after today. The weeks aren't getting any less busy for me so I guess I'll just keep going. All Out.
