WW Week 7
- .6 lbs. Not much, but a loss none the less. I'm closer than I was last week. 11.8 lbs total.
Call in the Jaws of Life
A funny thing happened after one of those rare Friday nights this single momma went out on the town...at 2am the jaws of life had to be called in to cut me out of my favorite skirt. I wish I could say, at least, it was a decision made in the moment of passion and unzipping the zipper just didn't seem like a fast enough option to get me naked and horizonal. No, that wasn't the case. No exciting sextipade tales to tell you.... The truth is much more shameful, and had something to do with bad attitude black satin and delicious bar food.
It was probably the fact that I was so psyched to be going out that I didn't do the necessary trying-on of 10 different outfits prior to leaving the house. It was a whirlwind of an evening: my original babysitter canceled 45 minutes prior to the time I was supposed to meeting my friends and ordering a martini, and I was heartbroken and pathetic for 5 minutes (woah is me! the unfair life of a single parent. Don't I deserve at least one night of fun?) and then I got to work finding a replacement. I was determined to go out! For two weeks straight I had been counting down to the evening full of friends and attractive strangers and ridiculous flirting at a cheesy bar. I couldn't give up that easily. This is what being a single parent is all about: perserverance! And though usually it applies to finding the energy and resources to make it through the day of juggling diapers, daycare, work, dinner email and bathtime (and a shower for myself), in this instant it applied to doing whatever it took to get my freshly shaven legs out on the town. When my parents stepped up and (so angelicaly) cut their own dinner plans short so they could watch Lucca for me, I didn't mess around...I squeezed into my old standby skirt (a form fitting black satin pencil skirt, terrifically sexy and suggestive, but far from trashy and desperate) and filled up two bottles of organic whole milk for Lucca, kissed him goodbye with painted lips, and hit the town.
It wasn't until I was halfway down the free way that I noticed how incredibly uncomfortable I was. My favorite skirt had betrayed me-- all of a sudden it was 3 sizes too small. We all know that plants wither when they are left in the corner untended to by their owners, but can going-out skirts really shrink from neglect as well? Im sure it had absolutlely nothing to do with the fact that I ate every single Christmas cookie insight over the holidays...The pencil skirt was pissed off, and I was feeling like Peg Bundy.For all those nights it spent alone in my cold, dark closet instead of warm on my booty shaking hips, it was getting me back.
So the fried calamari and barbecue chicken casadillas was not the best idea. But what was I to do? I had a few martini's and greasy happy hour apps are irresistible.
By the time I got home it was way passed my bedtime and I couldn't wait to flip off my heels and fall deep asleep snuggling with my favorite little man, my son Lucca. Lord knows I couldn't sleep suffocated in satin, so I did the only thing I could do...I took the scissors and cut myself out of my skirt. So sad. So very very sad. I loved that skirt... It was with me that unforgetable evening I was with Mr. Big, and at that Christmas party with the endless bottles of champagne. It was with me the night I took Lucca out on our first mother-son date at PF Changs. (Sure, he sat drooling in a highchair and wasn't much for conversation, but I was proud of myself for dressing up and standing proud in my single mom status and a happy little memory was made). Now my favorite skirt laid dead on my bathroom floor, severed in half in two unmendable shreads.
Good Intentions
In the past, I would purchase and read books on diet and exercise, hoping for motivation. But a part of me thought (magically) that reading the books was enough, that I didn't really have to doanything to lose weight. I might be approaching this blog in the same way, that keeping a food and exercise diary is enough. That doesn't seem to be working. But at least I can't lie to myself about what goes in my mouth when there is a public record.
So let's let go of expectations and just observe for a while. Maybe from observation I will receive insight.
What I ate today:
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Oatmeal (with 1 t. butter, some brown sugar and raisins)
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Milk - 1 c. of 2%
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Apple
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GORP
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Leftover Italian something-or-other
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Salad - spring greens, carrots, celery, green pepper with kalamati olive and caper dressing
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Egg and cheese burrito - 2 eggs, cheddar cheese, 1 tortilla
Exercise: yoga (1 hr. class)
What Exactly Are You Counting? 1/19/12006
Dear Carb Counters,
Counting carbs is a crazy fad. I actually thought it was dead when Atkins guy died of a heart attack, but no, it is certainly alive today. People at my work do it all the time. "I'll take a pile of tuna please. No bread." "Can I get a slab of lunch meat, hold the bread?" This practice is actually just a form of calorie reduction, when performed properly. This is not about the proper people, it's about people like the lady I saw today. "I'll take a burger, minus the bun, but plus one more burger and cheese." What the fuck? I"ll take 500 calories, minus 100, plus 400 more? That's not going to lose you any weight. This country is so god damn lazy that they can't even excercise, they have to look for a quick way out, like eating a shit load of fat and no carbs. Here's a hint people, if the fast food restaurants picked up on it really fast, it's probably not good for you. A low carb breakfast bowl made of bacon, eggs, cheese, sausage, ham, more bacon, and more cheese is not good for you. Yes, it's low carb, but it's 9 kajillion calories from fat. Fat kills you, not carbs people. When's the last heart attack you heard about from carbohydrates? Even if the low carb/all fat diet works for you, your heart now weighs 68 lbs and you have a blood pressure of 190/120. Small price to pay for being less fat eh? Get a fucking clue. In conclusion, I'd like to tell you of something I recently discovered. I know of an item that you can take just 3 times a week, and all it does is take a few minutes to finish. It's guaranteed to make you healthier, raise you heartbeat, raise your metabolism and burn calories. It's even free! It's called exercise. Do it you crisco guzzling fuckers!
I need to loose some weight!!!!!
I was trying to diet for some times, and every day I tell myself I am going to start tomorrow and ITS BEING A YEAR ever since I started to notice myself becoming too fat. I mean if you have stressing school, and you need to meet up with stressing people, well chocolate and yummy fatty dinner is the only happiness in your life....... My boyfriend have being intimidating or frightening me that he will dump me if I don't loose weight within a months, but.......... ITS IMPOSSIBLE!!!!! I know, its my fault...... I LOVE EATING, and that's why I can't take this one step to actually start eating healthy and start going to gym.
Where I live in Canada, is snowing today like crazy! Its crazy!!!!! SNOW in March...... It makes me believe 2012 pole shift is maybe really comming. SCARY! Don't you think its amazing that only things that human being can't fight back is the force of nature, we could adapt to it, but never fight back... Cool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I used to weight 53kg with height 170cm, but now its almost 75kg. HELP HELP HELP!!!! I look like a pig, and I don't know where to start........ And its still hard to resist yummy food!
I wish one day, Alien will come to earth and say "From today, we are controlling the earth", and our lives will change forever! I think I need some changes in my life, I'm bored of everything. Well, winning lottery might change my life but... other than that, not really. By the way, lottery result is out tomorrow! I hope I will win it........ PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!
By the way stocks are doing pretty ok these days isn't it, haven't check U.S stocks but Canadian once (TSX) is doing good.
And this is exactly what I feel like eating now!!!!:
DAMN it looks great!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I need therapy right now, so I will post picture of candle for myself.
p.s. I will diet from tomorrow..........
Day 4 Week 6
A little annoying today in the gym as my wrists were giving up on me so I wasn't able to military press as much as usual. Might have to change the rest I leave between arms and shoulders workouts.
Food:
- Breakfast - whey shake 2xscoop + banana + 2 boiled eggs + marmite on toastx2
- Day: whey shake, 2x orange, 2x apple, pear, banana,yogurt, whole quiche 8"
- Evening: pasta salmon whey shake
Exercise:
- abs warmup
- front db raise 8x12.5kg, 2x8x15kg / hand
- side db raise 3×8x12.5kg / hand
- db seated military press - 12x25kg, 2x10x25kg / hand
- bb pullup - 8x42.5kg, 3x8x47.5kg
- shrugs bb front - 2×12x47.5kg
- shrugs bb rear - 2×12x47.5kg
- standing military press - 7x40kg, 2x6x40kg
- reverse flies on machine 2x8xset150, 2x8xset170
- Football training over lunch hour
Kämpar på
I tisdags började jag mitt nya liv, som sagt. Jag äter numera regelbundet. Jag dricker smoothie till frukost och mellanmål. Grönsaker och protein till lunch och kvällsmat. Annars ingenting.
Imorgon kommer jag nog avvika lite från dieten. Ska träffa en go vän och då brukar det bli något litet gott att äta. Men det gör ju inte så mycket. Så länge jag behärskar mig och bara tar lite.
Nu ska jag lägga mig och läsa. Köpte en ny bok på bokrean igår: Djävulen bär Prada. Får se om jag kan hålla ögonen öppna länge nog. Är rätt så trött och har lite ont i huvudet. Har haft det sen i tisdags.
going going going gone - fashions auctioned from the cat walk to you
Fashion just got a little sweeter. , and announced today that the "Eye Candy" fashions created on the hit reality design competition show, Project Runway, have left the catwalk for the auction block. The delicious Hershey-inspired fashions are being auctioned exclusively on to benefit the Young Survival Coalition. The Weinstein Company and Bravo expect that bidding on the delectable fashions will provide not only financial support but also increase awareness on women’s health. Bidding on the delectable fashions is open now through March 18, 2008.
For more information on the Hershey-inspired "Eye Candy" fashions featured on Project Runway or to place a bid to benefit the Young Survival Coalition, visit by March 18. To see who’s in and who’s out in the final designers challenge, tune-in to the season finale of Project Runway, which airs at 10 p.m. EDT on Wednesday, March 5 on Bravo.
"When the idea of creating fashion from Hershey products was first brought to my attention, I couldn’t think of a more delicious challenge, literally," said , mentor on Project Runway. "Seeing the textures and colors of Hershey products and candy brought to life in a medium like fashion was unique and exciting. The fact that these pieces will help to raise funds for the Young Survival Coalition, just makes this entire episode a little sweeter."
Project Runway’s sixth episode on January 2, 2008, challenged contestants to design a dress from materials gathered during a five minute shopping spree at the Hershey’s™ Times Square store. One contestant created a completely edible ensemble with Twizzlers® candy, while others adorned garments with wrappers from Reese’s® Peanut Butter Cups and giant Hershey’s® Milk Chocolate bars. The winner, , fashioned a backless, halter-style bodice from Twizzlers packaging and a pleated skirt from the shiny foil wrapping of pink York® Peppermint Patties.
Day 40: Getting Back On Track
This post is part of a series of daily posts documenting Brad’s weight loss journey losing 95 pounds using the weight loss program.
Well, honestly, I blew it this last week. It doesn't suffice just to say that I cheated and then got back on the program again. I think the reasons I cheated and what led up to it are more important than the fact that it happened.
It all started because the program works so well. You cheated because it was working so well? Yep. When I was first introduced to the program and heard the words "low calorie", the first thought in my head was, "I'm going to be very hungry." After all, that's what the result of any other 'low calorie' program was for me. It must be something in the way these particular foods are designed, or maybe just the fact that you eat so often, but I actually found myself not hungry -- at all -- when it was time to eat. Not all the time, of course, but a good many times, when it was mealtime, I just didn't want to eat. This is VERY weird for me, who loves to eat... at any hour of day... regardless of whether I am hungry or not. So what did I do? I just went with it! I thought to myself, "If I miss a few meals here and there, especially since I'm not hungry, then I'll do nothing but speed up the weight loss process, right?" After all, less calories equals less weight, right? Well, it turns out I was wrong.
The reason I have to eat so often on this program is basically to convince my body that it isn't starving. It's already worried about that because of the dramatic reduction in calories, you see. But, when I give it food every three hours or so, it begins to think, "Okay... he's not trying to kill me. Sure, I may not be getting much, but I know I'll have some more in a few hours." That way, the body feels like it's okay to tap into those fat reserves.
So, when I started skipping meals, my body panicked. "Ack! I'm starving!" it said. And it starting hoarding everything. Even when I wasn't hungry, my body was expecting that consistent food. When it didn't get it -- even just for one or two meals -- it switched into self-preservation mode, and the weight quit coming off like it was.
This had a pretty dramatic psychological effect on me. I had gone from literally losing a pound a day, to a total standstill. And it really frustrated me. In that state of mind, it didn't take too much justification for me to start eating a few things I shouldn't be and, within about 24 hours, pretty much chuck the program altogether.
Fortunately, I have an amazing living example of the power of this program in my wife (who is officially down 119 pounds now!) who was able to show me where I'd messed up, and teach me why it was so important to eat consistently, even when I wasn't hungry. That is the value of a health coach -- someone to offer motivation, a sounding board for frustrations, and an encouragement that, if lived consistently, this program definitely works.
So the bad news is that I ended up putting two pounds back on during my backsliding days. The good news is that I'm now down four more pounds from there -- a net loss of two pounds. The other downside is that, if I'd trusted the program and not deviated, I'd probably be down 5-10 more pounds than I am now.
It feels good to be back on the program with a better understanding of how it works. I really felt miserable during the days I was off. And not like down-on-myself miserable. I mean physically miserable. My sugar headaches returned almost immediately, my energy failed me, and I just felt lethargic.
So, with renewed commitment and understanding, I look forward to what the next few weeks will bring.
Cult Tactics
In reading the , I see cult tactics at their best. The evidence keeps mounting proving to others what .
Coercive Mind Control Tactics
Coercion is defined by the American Heritage Dictionary as:
1.To force to act or think in a certain manner
2.To dominate, restrain, or control by force
3.To bring about by force.
Force comes in many forms. Psychological force in a coercive way to cause the learning and adoption of an ideology or designated set of beliefs, ideas, attitudes, or behaviors.
How Do They Work?
The tactics used to create undue psychological and social influence, often by means involving anxiety and stress, fall into seven main categories.
TACTIC 1
Increase suggestibility and "soften up" the individual through specific hypnotic or other suggestibility-increasing techniques such as:Extended audio, visual, verbal, or tactile fixation drills, Excessive exact repetition of routine activities, Sleep restriction and/or Nutritional restriction.
TACTIC 2
Establish control over the person's social environment, time and sources of social support by a system of often-excessive rewards and punishments. Social isolation is promoted. Contact with family and friends is abridged, as is contact with persons who do not share group-approved attitudes. Economic and other dependence on the group is fostered.
TACTIC 3
Prohibit disconfirming information and non supporting opinions in group communication. Rules exist about permissible topics to discuss with outsiders. Communication is highly controlled. An "in-group" language is usually constructed.
TACTIC 4
Make the person re-evaluate the most central aspects of his or her experience of self and prior conduct in negative ways. Efforts are designed to destabilize and undermine the subject's basic consciousness, reality awareness, world view, emotional control and defense mechanisms. The subject is guided to reinterpret his or her life's history and adopt a new version of causality.
TACTIC 5
Create a sense of powerlessness by subjecting the person to intense and frequent actions and situations which undermine the person's confidence in himself and his judgment.
TACTIC 6
Create strong aversive emotional arousals in the subject by use of nonphysical punishments such as intense humiliation, loss of privilege, social isolation, social status changes, intense guilt, anxiety, manipulation and other techniques.
TACTIC 7
Intimidate the person with the force of group-sanctioned secular psychological threats. For example, it may be suggested or implied that failure to adopt the approved attitude, belief or consequent behavior will lead to severe punishment or dire consequences such as physical or mental illness, the reappearance of a prior physical illness, drug dependence, economic collapse, social failure, divorce, disintegration, failure to find a mate, etc.
These tactics of psychological force are applied to such a severe degree that the individual's capacity to make informed or free choices becomes inhibited. The victims become unable to make the normal, wise or balanced decisions which they most likely or normally would have made, had they not been unknowingly manipulated by these coordinated technical processes. The cumulative effect of these processes can be an even more effective form of undue influence than pain, torture, drugs or the use of physical force and physical and legal threats.
While going through this list, I was going to highlight those things I felt pertained directly to Kimkins. Yet reading the list of tactics through again, they ALL apply to Kimkins.
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